Dad this is for you !!!!

Dedicated to my dad !!!
I pen down my first poem, written in the memory of my dad(Mr. N.S Viswanathan) who passed away on 26th September 1997. Dad, I dedicate this to you from my heart I really miss you dad.

I was returning back from school
On the way to see my beautiful souls
Something happened unusual
And everyone seemed so sorrowful

Lots of crowd gathered around
I was amazed to look around
I ran like a kitten to open the door
Lots of hands stopped me from doing so

I was led through the backyard
Where the crowd that I could see was weird
And the strange feeling came over though…
When I entered home through the back door

I was offered some butter milk to drink
But my eyes never remembered to wink
I could see something hidden
I never knew it was the owner of the kitten

My heart started beating when
I saw his legs being tied like a hen
I dropped the milk…
Running fierce fully amidst the crowd

My heartbeat stopped
And my life was gone
I stopped breathing
When I could see his eyes having closed

I ran towards him crying aloud
Asked him to open his eyes
I waited for a while expecting his reply
He never replied though.

I placed my feeble hands on his eyes
Too many people stopped me from doing so
I asked them why I shouldn’t
They replied me that his eyes were gone

I cried aloud asking where it was
The crowd replied that he has donated his eyes
I asked them ‘how will he see’
The crowd replied that he will never see

I could see the nostrils being blocked by cotton
I cried aloud again saying
Remove them please ‘how will he breathe’
The crowd replied that he will never breathe

I cried aloud saying
Remove the knot being tied in the legs‘how will he even walk’
The crowd again replied that he will never walk
I was crying aloud saying

Please remove at least the ice over his body
He might feel cold
The crowd replied that he can never feel anymore.
I was stunned ….

Cold water was sprayed over me
I poured the same on him
Fed him with the last rice
I could see people carrying him away from my tiny soul

I waved him the last Good Bye
I never saw him later then
Heard that he had turned into ashes
But the fumes would stay in my heart forever

I appeared like a feather
Two flowers holding me together
But did I even know that
One flower was about to move farther

I searched for you the whole day
I dreamt of you the whole night
I hoped for you every moment
All I ended up was in disappointment


I lost my guide half way through
But the other flower held me in her hands throughout
She helped me get a good education
She helped me gain a good position

She is a legend for me
And that I would always hold her in my heart forever
The kitten is now a cat
Waiting every moment to see her master

13 years of loneliness
156 months of pain
4745 days of tears
113889 hours of remembrance

6833322 minutes of hopes
409999342 seconds of memories
I swear I am unable to bear
I want you dad to be with me

Please come back to see your kitten
And I am sure you exist here
Your eyes still exist in the earth
I wish I could see you again

And I will tell you the way for it
My womb is waiting for you …
I wish to have you as my son dad
To hold you in my heart forever.……….

LOVE YOU DAD!!!

Yours Lovingly
Saraswathi Sneha